Wednesday, February 9, 2011
Jack Charles Jackovin
You have a name! I know what you are thinking - Jack Jackovin? Mom! But little guy, nobody in heaven will make fun of your name, people are too nice up there and clearly you are having too much fun with those people because your big brother is living up to his name, CRAZY! What were you and Grandma Jackovin doing when Will did a front flip off the couch? What about when he ran dead smack into the stairs (yep, that will leave a mark!)? You two need to watch him a little bit better - he clearly is not afraid of much!
This past month has been hard, really hard. I think the reality of everything that happened is all hitting me full force and I am just sensitive to everything that involves you or about babies in general. To the outside world I know I appear fine and I am past what happened, but I will never get past this. Sure, time will heal, but this is a scar that will never be fully healed . . . I can't even write this without crying. There is nothing I want more in this world then for you to be born and to live.